WHY DOES EVERYTHING SEEM TO ALWAYS HAPPEN AROUND A BUS

and why are all my post titles in capitals and also why after like three years or something am i still bad at titles?
that was a lot of questions
so i woke up early and wasn’t even mad about it
didn’t have to bus there because mum dropped me off (did home thought but thats an entirely different story that ill get to later)
the people were there as soon as i was with was fine
george was really late thought like an hour
and so i met beccas twin and charles for the first time
and he had a black eye
and the first thing i said to him was you were mean to me on the internet
which was weird
i don’t really know what to say about all the other stuff but they were all really great
we found melissa a bit after i got there
went to the warehouse and that was ok except they specifically charles were being disruptive to my very sensitive everyone is judging me and the people I’m around mentality
melissa was all over him and he let her which still confuses me
so we talked and whatever hung out sat around had no personal space i need to remember the present for becca tomorrow
the earrings
from australia
as in i need to find them now in the drawer that i can never really find things in in the dark
great plan hannah
done
anyway i think charles is a very tactile person
does that mean what i mean it to mean?
i know what i mean though
i feel kinda sick
hes cute not exactly as looks but as a person
so theres not really much specifically to mention until the last bit in pacnsave where he kinda hugged/held/somethinged me and it was weird and i said something like i almost licked him and then he said something else and i said maybe later
then he tazed me when we were walking and because i really wasn’t expecting it i actually yelped and kinda screamed a little which was really embarrassing
that was the weirdest weird it got but the other stuff was weird but not strange weird or weird weird just not like me weird
like i don’t know how to hit on guys and i don’t know how to make a move and i guess i kinda did some things but like i dunno
i think I’m getting week before period cramps or I’ve just eaten weird today
im aso getting pretty tired cos its actually taken me ages to write this
so lets get to the part i want to talk about
the other girls left and caught the bus together
the twin hugged him and george before she left which was the first time he had been hugged like that
george left and did george things
and that left charles and i trying to figure out who was busing where and how and all that
i didn’t want to cross the road not at the crossing place and he joked about holding my hand and then did while we crossed the road
it was weird but not bad and he kept telling me i had soft hands
after a decision he went with me on the orbiter to riccarton as in past school which i then had to bus back to and yeah it was good we didn’t run out of things to talk about and he was funny and it was cool
and then he poked me and i had a weird twitch and smashed my wrist on the back of the seat in front of me and he was in hysterics and it was cute
and then i was scared he was gonna do it again so i put my hands over his to stop him and then we ended up holding hands but it was right in right so it was kinda weird and i don’t know why i was so ok with it but it felt right and not weird but it as weird because it wasn’t weird
AND I HELD HANDS WITH A BOY
on like the first day i met him and lonely little me is basically planning our marriage for next month
not really but like i go way too much into what is really nothing cos as i said i only met him today and even though we spent like 6 hours together its not very long
so he came to riccarton with me and it as good and we kinda held hands again and he was being cute and awkward but also really funny and conversation was easy and i was having a good time
and then the bus came and he had to go
when he left he hugged me like he wanted to be there
as in like the second time he’d properly hugged a girl but like shiiiiiiit man all i can compare it to is how hugs from brodie have been lately like the minimum length while still being considered a hug but charles actually did the proper hug thing and it was great and i was happy except for the fact he was leaving
and that is that
i don’t know what will happen and i don’t know if anything will even happen but we kinda all want to hang out again and it has the potential for greatness
but i don’t actually think i can tell becca about it
i did tell lily though

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i dunno it went i guess

my art is going in a strange place and becoming a kind of political commentary by someone who doesn’t know much and is also mocking it a little
which might not be that great
kinda need to bring Otis in soon
brodie wasn’t there
becca said george likes her
i need to stop buying food and drink
i can’t quite say I’m going to because I’m not making that promise yet
today was the shortest day of the year
winter solstice as in yule
I FINALLY WON A GAME OF SWEET VALLEY HIGH
i started off losing
i kept turning over jessicas cards and jess wasn’t playing
i also got two detentions
basically i was getting fisted for most of the game
until the end where i got some pretty choice trade place squares and a change boyfriends then killed it with like 3 minutes to spare before class
efs was crap i don’t know what we’re doing

scared for my not exactly life but momentary wellbeing

im glad day five was a rest day
im not sure if it was a coincidence or not
english was meh
brodie sat next to me again he smelled like smoke and it hurt my head
but what was the point in saying anything
i tried even more to write the essay but it still wasn’t working
then break where i saw loghann after a basically same as usual community meeting
then went to the cafe stayed there with becca a while then remembered that loghann was in yellow class now so went back to that and did some work and we laughed about things that i can’t really remember but it was great
then lunch we played sweet valley high which because of the company fucking hilarious
and then monopoly
which is where shit started getting bad
there was also some jokes made with me loghann and her boyfriend having a threesome
and then we said we loved each other
and then they mentioned it to alena’s boy hamish and we (well me and loghann) ended up talking to him saying some pretty weird shit and he was i think still thinking it was alena
but it was along the lined of threesomes and he assumed it was two guys and said it was only gay if the balls touched (Lila said we didn’t have balls and i said not yet we don’t you know the usual reply) then Lila told me to reply and i said something like i don’t want to be involved in this i don’t want to take part in it i only want to spectate
and then she told him i said that and it turned into me mentioning Eiffel towering and him not getting it but making a dick joke and i said something about going sight seeing to the leaning tower of pizza too
it was a wild ride
and then there was the whole fucking speed monopoly which stressed me out
i went into jail on my second turn Lila had a secret stash of money in her laptop but i cleaned it out with my four railways which i didn’t have till we traded marylebone plus $150 for bond or oxford
then i just smashed it
but the thing was it was really stressful and i had no idea what was happening most of the time i was shaking and overheated and i was trying to buy a property by the time three more turns had already been taken and i felt like we were all cheating because i couldn’t keep track of what was going on
i won by default of ho had the most money when we had to pack up and go to class
but i was ill and lightheaded and really just off
so i told brent i had to go buy food and then EFS was just weird and i didn’t like it and we’re going to have to write another report for the thing thats taking us eight weeks to do
BUT when we were voting for what we were going to do and to mark on the board which one we wanted to do and i put smiley faces up for sophie holly and i and then everyone else started dong it
i think brent is annoyed at me
half cos i don’t do work and half because I’m disruptive and do stuff like that
good thing for him then that loghann isn’t in bio anymore 😦 but not a good thing for me
thats it for school but there was a culture puzzle at work and no i have it and i finished it and its cool and i like it

the world is falling apart but i have a trash rose

i should start from the beginning but things only really got interesting about lunch time
so nothing really in mentoring
then there was blue art where we talked about stuff and didn’t do work really
then loghann and i went to the supermarket
while walking past the dumpster we saw some flowers that had been put in that still looked pretty decent and i picked out a rose and then the whole bunch and loghann picked out a couple too and then a dude picking up trash much have put them back in cos by the time we got back there was only my single rose left lying on the ground
i stuck it behind my ear and left it there till i went home
then we played a game of sweet valley high which i basically won’t they wanted to end it so we could play cards
yellow block jess and i kinda tried to do stuff but then we just played cards
left and then oh holy miracle
dan let me on in front of him on the bus and i hadn’t even realised he was there
a watched pot never boils eh?
then he asked me something to do with brodie and school and essays and english class then i said something about brodie being a dick and then about poems then about ben and the buzzard
and he kept laughing and it was adorable and i now get why people are like oh my god people are so attractive when they’re talking about their passions
and then he told me about the comics
which are according to him shit but i think the do have some twisted kind of humour in them
so we messaged a couple of times on facebook and thats pretty much it
opened the door to some more on the bus conversations but yeah
had fish and chips and a Dr Pepper
told jess all about it
to the youtube
and i would skype jarrod but no he’s not online for once in his life

the edge the month the meme

most of the time on faultline nights i forget that i had the day at school before them
so i think i was more social today than I’ve been in a while
i certainly felt more up with the kids in the social media department to be sure
so went to school later
got there just in time for class
had critique
thought it didn’t really have a point
went to the supermarket with loghann alena jess and mostly sophie
then came back and played sweet valley high
there is a rodent in my roof
i did not win but winston is my man now and always until he dies from falling off a balcony “…after a night of drunken debauchery,” so ill spend as much time with him as i can (whats this? another integrated quote? you see this richard? with an ellipsis too don’t think i haven’t learnt anything from your class)
and then yellow which was fine i guess
then i got home and worked on a poem
skyped jarrod and then picked up peaches skyped jarrod changed my pants got ready stopped skyping jarrod went to faultline
cameron was there which was actually really awkward but in the intermission he said it was better than he expected it would be and then left to meet a girl
sat with ben and his mate josh (don’t go there do not do not do not)(too late matt’s cats last name) and it was a barrel of laughs like actually really really great
MY ELBOW JUST CLICKED PROPERLY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A FUCKING ICE AGE THANK OUR FUCKING LORD AND SAVIOUR THE TELLETUBBY SUN
many memes many laughs many relatable comments
i was third
josh was fourth
and ben was fifth
the rest is like whatever
need to remember that Rangi is the girl who did the really long journal entry thing at the end of i think two faultlines ago maybe last year though??
ben said we should make a podcast
and write a poem about when we were standing outside waiting for our mothers
so on the was home and at home i wrote it
and it sounds way more deep and meaningful than all the jokes we created in those 20 minutes and i love it and can’t wait to perform it next month
so the whole being weirdly active on all the social medias and getting hip with the kids was i followed ben on his new account on instagram and posted twice
and added him on twitter
and sent him the photo of the dark stairs dude with all the edge
he sent me his photos (which were the ones i posted)
sent sophie the photo of the rainbow paddle pop
found the dude on facebook (and twitter)
changed my profile picture
poster on tumbler
and now here we are
i want to write a poem about more dude but like theres too much

Logan-26

it feels like theres a lot to write but really there might not be
beginning
went ok i suppose
english wasn’t great though because i didn’t take any notes
but helped kitty come up with a synonym for determination to cheat richard’s rule of not using the same theme as someone else had
then she had to rewrite her quiz question because id already used it which was kinda funny
had a 1-1 and then tried to find mike
but couldn’t so did some art instead
started some hand stuff and then one of the dude the dude the too nice dude and then THEN the bestest dude in my entire world
had a little bit of a conversation about watercolours with lucy the strange vintage girl
then went to louise’s homebase and it was pretty cool they (jess teresa and loghann) were playing the sweet valley high board game which is the 80s is thing cos thats when the books were out and i joined in for the second game where i was Enid and i lost my boyfriend to teresa and then she put him in the literacy classroom like hell yes my mans a poet but shit i lost him
but then i got him back but teresa had basically won anyway by the time mentoring was over
but theres cards that say at the end “Enid can roll the die and play out of turn,” but loghann (FUCK YOU RICHARD I CAN INCORPORATE QUOTES PROPERLY GO SUCK ONE) missed parts out and ended up just saying ‘die’ which was hilarious at the time and then we got to bio and kyle the creepy reliever dude who always wears sunglasses in all weather was doing our roll for us and we were saying how we have never seen his eyes and i was going to say maybe he rolled them so much they died but i was laughing too hard i couldn’t get the words out so i ended up typing them out and just laughing about it for too long
AND THEN
and then
AND THEN

Lily was there
my wife who i love so dearly and haven’t seen since late last year after like four months i finally saw her again
fuck id missed her
we walked and talked for a while and i was kinda ditching class for it but she was worth it and yeah it was great
went back to class eventually and then told loghann about the xyzzy cards agains humanity site and went on it
spectated a game under the name ‘logibear’ and some chic called ella asked if we were someone she knew
(some of the conversation is missing but yeah)

token: logan?
logibear: sup
t: maddies bf?
t: wtf
l: yeah
t: WTFFFFFFF
l: lol
t: coinkadink

t: you? hows the hsc?
(we had no idea what she was on about so just winged it)
l: its going pretty well at the moment
Boo (no idea who this was): how old are you now?
(how the fuck were we supposed to answer that? in my head i just had a clip of josh from his video with tobi so i said that)
l: old enough….. to partaaaaayyyy
t: hes 26

so that was a wild ride we probably just really confused some people but it was great

then went home went to work came home watched shield have one episode and the bonus features to watch dyed mums hair
can’t put holds on the dvd series
need to clean my piercings
faultline tomorrow and i need to finish a poem

i rolled over and then

so my alarm went off at seven as usual
but i’d stayed up till half past three
so even though mum talked to me
i rolled over and suddenly it was quarter to ten mum was home and i was very late to school
but then mum dropped me off so it was fine
went to EFS and brent wasn’t there and we had a reliever and then everyone who didn’t go with the reliever to go and take water samples stayed and tried to put together all the data that we had and figure out what we still need
it got pretty confusing
spent lunch leaning on kitty and holding her hand
pretty sure the duck wasn’t there
finished my art stuff finally
and then left at like 2:30 to catch my old bus
didn’t see nathan though
watched some shield and went to word
AT WORK THERE WAS A PUPPY
a puppy a puppy
a puppy
a fucking puppy
i was smiling so much my face hurt
she doesn’t have a name yet but she’s a nine week old huntaway and i got to hold her
BLINDSPOT IS ON TONIGHT AND ITS REALLY FUCKING EPIC
can’t wait
kinda want to talk to jarrod which is a bad thing because i don’t understand my feelings

Billionaire

more like broke
but its a card game that i learnt today and its pretty cool
its georgias birthday today and i got tagged in her photos that alice put up
the funny thing is i took most of them
I’ve been working on the stuff for art
i didn’t go and see Mike because i was doing the art stuff and its not like i desperately need to talk to him but its kinda a balancing thing
might meditate later
do i even have time though
i need to do as much as i can with the analysis things before class tomorrow
which also means i need to do my own ones too without looking at them which is hard unless I’m going to be able to get them done before 10:45 tomorrow
I’ve got one of the Egon ones to finish and another whole one to do then i can staple them together
i might just do some chill art after that maybe a magpie thing cos i need to keep doing them
also need to get more wool
and practice guitar
i got a lot to do
and finish the english first response thing and figure out what I’m going to do for the second response and email richard about it
so bio was pretty good today cos we were doing microscope stuff and i knew how to do it already
it was really cool to do all the focusing things but then i couldn’t take a photo of it through the lens which was annoying but it was still one of my favorite of those classes
i don’t know whats gonna happen with jarrod tonight

Are you wearing pants?

when i got to school like 15 mins before class started even though i took an earlier bus
fuck this stupid traffic
i went into richard’s homebase and diana was there with patrice and then in the corner talking to no one was dan who I’m pretty sure is oblivious to everything when he’s alone anyway
the first thing diana said to me was asking if i was even wearing pants to which i eloquently replied uuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh *point* bike shorts
im so good at this human interaction thing
and now I’m not writing this post properly because I’m posting random poem pieces on the other blog
i sent one of the things to cameron
art was meh but i did do a thing
i need to remember to go and talk to mike tomorrow
went to new world with becca because brodie wasn’t answering his messages but he then said that he went a bit after we did
made a donation to the dumbass by giving $2 to yashbir for no real reason
in ifs it wasn’t so bad not really sure whats going on now though
we made a google doc?
told brodie about grandma
i was ignoring him for a bit when he was trying to show me something about a photo and then slapped my leg
and i kept ignoring him so he slapped me i think twice more and it left a mark for a while its gone now though and then when i was about to go off to class i was like well i can feel one of my knees but not the other and its weird and he jokingly offered to slap the other one but i seriously said yes and he did
they didn’t get why i said yes i don’t really either
but theres no marks now
neither him nor becca will be there tomorrow
the greatest thing of the day was at work i wrote larry’s popcorn machine on my mop bucket and gnome-be-gone on the purple spray the wand of justice on the kitchen mop handle and kind arthur’s sword on the toilet mop
also ended up putting a sign saying this was to narnia on the pointless laundry bin and mum put a couple signs on some bins saying something about the magic wishing tree and down the rabbit hole
ha phil you can suck it you interfering little British gnome